The night before I began my big mistake with Oscar, I read Eucalyptus. In that Australian take on Arabian Nights, there is an old man with one daughter and hundreds of gum trees. When she is 19, he decides to marry her off to the man who can name all his trees. Then who should she chance on but a young man who tells her stories, day after day.
Among his dozens of stories, one stayed on my mind. The girl-meets-boy one about the restless woman from Geelong and her Spaniard. They meet in Corunna in north-west Spain. She doesn’t know he is the love of her life until she leaves him for London and realises she shouldn’t have.
In London at the most unexpected moments she saw the room in Corunna, which seemed from a distance to be jammed in at an angle among the black rocks. She kept seeing him across the room and close up. It was their room. He had a long face and hairs on his shoulders: she liked his solemn expression. She could feel his month and hear his voice.
They never meet again.
At strange important moments a person is given one and only one chance; and that had been one.
Did I want to be with Oscar? I don’t know. Maybe I didn’t want to be the woman from Geelong. It was on my mind that I shouldn't be making her mistake. I ended up making worse mistakes – but they were mine, mostly mine.
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